How to cope?

Pain dwells so heavy in my heart right now which makes being alone quite oppressive. I will do anything to have you back, back in my arms to look at and admire because you were one in a million and to be exact my first child.

August 9, 2009 at 1:49 pm Julian Jefferson was born and then gone....all within that same minute. My little boy didnt even have the oppurtunity to meet me or his wonderful father. We were so anxious to see you and couldn't wait to have you finally here with us. But not this early. Because you were so young the doctors told us that you your chances of survival was really low. But i still had some hope. I just want you to know how loved you were and still are. You sit heavy on our minds and hearts every single day, and i already know this trial won't be an easy one to get over so all i can do is pray for strength for your father and I. I know God is taking great care of you Julian I just want you to always remember us. Please don't ever forget because Lord knows we will never forget you my Love. One day we will meet again and that will probably be the best day ever. Love you always.