Toooo Funny

Its official. Step Brothers is the funniest movie out right now. I wasn't expecting it to be as funny as it was to be quite honest...Two Thumbs up.

His Vacation....My Sorrow....

The loneliness is slowly eating me up inside, i feel like i need his touch, and it saddens me because i miss him already and i have 3 whole long days to go. I feel so sad because i'm waiting impatiently for my phone to ring from a call or beep from a text with his title flashing across the screen of my phone. I'm trying to hold back from texting him because, i want him to enjoy himself and his time away from me. I had a chance to do it when i went to myrtle beach with my friends, and i feel as though he should have that chance too. I just miss him so much, I want him to miss me the way i miss him. I'm just so upset with myself that i feel the way i feel, i want the strength to not call him until tomorrow but i don't think i have the ability to make it, because i feel like i know what i'm capable of and i guess i just don't think i can hold out that long, even though i should. This feel like a sickness, a love sickness maybe like I'm drunk off of his love, trying to get through the sickening night to sobber up. I'm just so sad because i miss my babes. Its hard because its a drastic change for me, every morning i wake up he is right there beside me, sleeping so peacefully, we see each other everyday, so this is gonna be a hell of a week for me unfortunately. I really need to toughen up, because Love is a beautiful thing and a wonderful feeling, i just hate the other feelings that come with it like these, especially when your addicted the way i am.

I will make an attempt to go to bed, but i don't thing that will be a succesful one. Chances are i will sit there in the dark looking at my phone, pondering about what he could be doing and questioning why he hasn't called me yet, and who really knows for how long. I really hate this feeling, i feel pathetic, and i'm already pissed at myself, for being so weak. Well Attempt one is about to begin. Goodnight Folks



LOVEJUNKIIE

My brains ready to explode!!!

Tuesday Evening after the movies....He took me to see "The Dark Night" and I must say it was a pretty extraordinary movie... Two Thumbs UP!! But this pic was taking in the middle of traffic on our way home. As you can see he obviously didn't feel like taking the pic..but i did so tough titty babe and give a round of applause for your lame debut on my blog.

Yeah man I need to start blogging more because I be having too much stuff that i really be needing to get up off my chest. Well lets start off with my weekend. Me and The girls went down to Adams Morgan, i honestly only go there to get my hair done in the daytime because as some of you females know the Dominican hair salons sit heavy over there and they be hooking my hair up, Ho la mami's! Sooo basically this was my first evening actually going down there and to fess up and admit it, I really enjoyed myself. I like the atmosphere (besides the filthy looking Mofo's) because every where you look its something going on and clubs up and down the whole strip, unfortunately i wasn't able to get into those clubs yet but we made the best of it, so hopefully we go back this weekend or my b-day weekend. I wish i would have brought my digi cam but i forgot it. I just really wanted to take pics because i had the biggest slice of pizza ever, and it was good as shit, lol. It was more than enough to make you and the person you was sharing with full, and then still have some left over. Cool right and it was only 5 bucks. But to sum all this up, we aint leave to damn near 4am, babes came and scooped me up since he was in the area. Overall it was a fun night, and i'm glad i opened my mind up and took the iniative to get up out the house rather than being up his ass all the damn time.

I'm ready to....Go???

I am really ready to go somewhere....anywhere, somewhere i can explore and or be a tourist. Its summertime and I am ready to just make moves and go where i want to go without being told no. Dammit deej i swear why didnt ur ass text me you were going to philly because i would have went. I just really want to go somewhere new, maybe to New York or something to shop explore or go to a concert....I'm young i just wish i had the funds where i can enjoy the freedom of this beautiful season called Summer to explore its wonders and everything it possibly has to offer. Some people have it easy like that where as me... I don't, sucks doesn't it.

In other news my manager got fired just last week. I have to say Karma is a bitch, he was the ultimate asshole point blank end of discussion, he was fake and had authority issues, only he could be in charge and he would make up his own rules and when questioned about it he would lie. To sum it all up i do feel bad because i didn't expect him to get fired but honestly he needs to learn from his mistakes and hopefully he will overcome this obstacle that life has thrown his way by becoming a better person. I pray all goes well with him and for his family because the way our economy is now times are rough and it will be a struggle. And To this day....nobody actually knows the real reason he was fired but i'm sure they have plenty or reasons.....and i really do mean plenty.

The Randoms--- Okay I got my hair done on Friday and its growing and it looks great, I have plenty of pictures but I am always posting from babes laptop which he keeps over here and i don't feel like uploading them from here....anywho today marks the day where my 21st birthday is only a month away! Anticipation is the rush i feel, possibly because i just want a few gifts from jamar (babe) but yea thats all i really care about i guess, the last thing i want to do is rush my summer because when my birthday comes....the notorious new school year comes right along with it.Ummmm I want another tattoo, i think i will get it on my birthday, i want something particularly special with a significant meaning, thats why i'm thinking now because really don't want to regret the 2nd one. Ummm my period came, jamar and i had a slip up like a month ago and 9 hours after the accident, i bought PLAN B, and to my surprise it actually worked. So ladies if you ever screw around and say things you don't mean during sex and yall have an oooopsie moment, buy plan B as soon as possible because it really works.

I'm such a last minute person. Okay I got a speeding ticket for going 38mph in the 30 zone (yeah stupid huh) and $80 fucking ticket now my broke ass gotta pay that nonsense. Anywho i go to pay it today since today is the last day and i was going to make the payment over the phone, and they have yet to put it in the system....I'm assuming because i was pulled over by a Cop in Training, so i don't know what to do. I want to pay it but they don't have nothing on file for me to pay. So I plan on going up to the police station sometime tomorrow to ask them what i should do...lol i already know what they should tell me but still thats $80 dollars i'm not just going to let it leave my account that easily. Well emotion wise I miss him, he is at work and most likely i won't be able to spend much time with him 2morrow according to the fact that i have to be at work by 11:15 tomorrow. Well thats it for now Good night

I Feel Loved.....But Neglected

I really been wanting to post but everytime i get settled down and ready to write i always lose my train of thought. The Question is, Whats really been up with me?

I just feel extremely lucky to be blessed with such a wonderful young man, he has the key to my heart and my dreams. I know i'm a bit clingy, and i'm sure if i could i probably would spend every moment with him but ever since mid spring he's been kinda out doing him and there is nothing wrong with him going out with his friends occasionally but with his busy work schedule it has been kinda hard for him to give me that ME TIME that i love so much. I would find myself getting caught up in jealous rages because he would rather spend most of his free time with his friends than with me so that caused alot of arguments and most of the arguments ended with him not understanding how i was feeling. Yeah i may have came across as a bitch and a bit selfish but it was getting to the point where we was barley doing any of the activities amongst our selves. But now these past 2 weeks....things have really changed or shall i put it, went back to normal and i am just glowing. Yea it aint just go back to normal by itself but along heart filled convo led to it. He spoils me rotten and its fucking great....can't wait til my birthday woot woot!!

I'm just happy right now and feel loved because he loves me and i love him back. He is going somewhere in his career path and so am i, like i can't wait to become a nurse cuz i will be making money out the ass....23 making a little over 70,000 year....shiiiiiiiit can't wait. Yea i may be working at a bullshit job now and broke as shit, but i'm still in school and my goal is only 2years a way. I'm just happy to have found a career path that interest me like nursing at the time i did....because i will not....will not...be one of those people regretting what they shoulda or coulda done....i just wanna make sure my future is set, i watched my mother struggle when i was younger and i damn sure don't want that for myself that is the last thing i want. I wanna be able to take care of my damn self pay my own bills car note, mortgage whatever.

My birthday is coming up soon....YESSSS here comes the big ole 21 cuz i sure am tired of being left out amongst the friends going to bars and lil lounges and ish.....that really sucks like i feel neglected by them hoes. Going out in shit without me or without even telling me b/c i'm not 21 yet....fucking losers!!! But i still love them little whores...lol.

JULY 4TH- was pretty effing cool. Babe had to work he had a show to do up at walkermill park so he was out there all day. My folks and fam and some of their friends came over 2 the house and we cooked out...i grubbed like shit and chilled with my sis and nephew til babes got home...then over his house all his fam was there and boy do they be lunching i really love his family they are all so damn hilarious. But yea babe lit some fireworks we got from this dude off the street...we call him the ultimate hustler cuz this nigga has everything but anywho....it was pretty. Babe ended up going to mix a band at some club down the street so i just stayed wit his fam it was like 20 of em...most of em young so they wasnt that bad...his lil sister and her lil friends and cousin got drunk as shit cuz 2day is her bday so they got str8 twisted last night. But overall it was pretty okay 4th of july.

I had to work this morning, and boy do i hate my job but i sure did get the fuck up outta there quick as shit today. Then i got amber (babes lil sister) a card with some cash from both of us for her bday, chilled over there with his fam ate crabs from last nite and just chilled over there lunching with all of em and his moms until he got home from work. It feels good now that i actually feel comfortable going to his house unannouced to hang with his fam when he's not home cuz i've been doing it a whole lot lately.....i just always have so much fun with them especially his lil brother chris...thats my lil boo he funny as hell....alot of times i rather hang out with them than babes b/c honestly it is just really fun hanging with them.

well i feel like i wrote enough even though i have a whole lot more to post...i guess i will just wait til 2morrow.

peace♥

Maybe I shouldnt have done that...

Have you ever told a lie that seemed a lil extreme? I always told myself i would never do that but i just didnt feel like going to work yesterday and at first i made the excuse up that i was sick but when i called out a whole other lie came out of my mouth unfortunately. I lied and told them that my mom was involved in a minor car accident and my assistant manager is so over dramatic that she blew the whole thing out of proportion so yea i ended up getting off yesterday just to chill with THE BABE♥, get my hair done, and the biggest of them all I got my first tattoo!!! But i just felt bad first off i prayed right after i told it and asked the lord to forgive me cuz i know i was dead wrong and i just prayed for my family because i shouldnt have done that i never thought i would lie about a situation like that. And Yes I am dead wrong but i am aware of my actions and i have learned from this b/c guilt sucks and can fuck up a day.

The New Tat

Well It was a good experience i was excited, and nervous at the same time...i literally ran when my turn was up. My two buddies deej, and ash accompanied me there and ash held my hand and boy did i squeeze for my dear life cuz it was quite painful. Its pretty and its on my inner right wrist. "L♥VE" I designed it how i wanted it myself and they hooked it up. "Do you have any regrets?" the question i've been asking myself since i got it....Well unfortunately i do, yea i was excited but its just weird to look at it all the time knowing its there and that it will be there for....forever...but i dnt regret getting a tattoo i just wish i woulda got it in a more discreet location.

Update of My Relationship coming up.

Normally being broke sucks....Right?

I've been working at bank of america going on 2 years and i absolutely hate my job. Being the last one from the sooo called "Clique" left is pretty lame. My manager has issues... i believe he told me yesterday that he is only hiring 28 and older now....and isnt that discrimination? Anyway I'm the last one standing unfortunately and even though it is summer i should take up some more hours but i just hate it there i only work 21 hours a week lol, i rather be broke than stressed or agitated, and atleast i'm enjoying the comforts of my summer until i take up my summer class which starts in july.

I'm the smart ass, funny, bitchy, outspoken individual there some love me but some dnt...My manager doesnt really like me and i don't like him. I'm their last part time teller standing and they are really being nice and appreciative of me...i guess in hopes that i stay. But that shit is just an act...what do they think i am stupid.... in the words of Pharell " I ain't a punk bitch, i dnt give a Fuck!" My manager be on some cruddy shit...Well uuuh its about that time that i start getting myself prepared to enter the shit hole... i will take some pics....i'm the drive thru teller so i get a good scenery...lol

New Shiit

Disregard the last post it sucks dealing with an asshole boyfriend....but i still love his ass unfortunately lol.

I use to be a lil blog head with xanga and livejournal but uuuh i havent done it in awhile so its gonna take a lil getting use to but here we go folks.

Babe finally got me my digi cam and she....yes "She" is wonderful and PINK!!! its pretty cool i mean i had a cannon before this 1 but the shit needed batteries and that gets irriating after awhile so i moved up and on from that 1 and gave it to the moms. Now lets talk about Babe now i kinda want to see him later but then again i don't he gets on my nerves. But anyway this bitch ass ex girlfriend of his is getting on my nerves like shit. Babe and I have been dating for 2years and this bitch pops back up n has been calling his phone and he supposely told her to stop calling but the bitch called him at 3:45am sunday morning. So I am about "-- " that close to txting or calling the busted up whore ass bitch and letting her know whats up she is fucking crazy she is the dirt beneath my fucking feet and i have no respect for her whats so ever. Sooo i let him know if this bitch calls again its fucking on...now i dnt have a potty mouth on the regular but shit like that can bring the bitch outta me...feel me I had to Spazzzzzzzz

I'm at a point where i'm having alot of problems with him and i really don't know how i feel about it, like really. I'm just bored cuz we don't do shit, he says i dnt make plans but when i do the he always breaks them...he is a workaholic i mean he is making his money but i'm bored, we use to do alot but now its everything is just a repition...i go over his house in the a.m. or he spends the night...LAME RIGHT and he doesnt seem to have a problem with it......hold up did i mention....he really gets on my nerves....lol

Bri ♥

Bored and Waiting

At this very moment 1:41 a.m. in the morning I'm waiting for him to arrive and it just really agitates me that he has me waiting this long. I need to let all my feelings out right now in this posting but its hard cuz i haven't blogged in a long ass time...but umm here the fuck i go..... Jamar really gets on my fucking nerves, like its to the point where i want to move on to teach him a lesson but i dnt think its worth it right now. I just dont understand why he does shit like this all the time and wonder why we are always fucking arguing. I'm debating on whether to call him or not right now to bitch but i'm tired of bitching to someone that can't get the simple shit through his fucking head. brb